I Can See Now, by Liz

I can see now

Why I've always felt awkward hugging other women.

It felt so good

And so shameful.

I can see now

Why I didn't have a genuine crush on a boy

Until I was fifteen;

Why my first big, earnest infatuation with a guy

Turned out to be with someone who was gay.

I can see now

What that dream about kissing a girl meant

When I was too young and afraid of myself

To admit it.

I can see now

The part of me that yearns

For female touch.

It's freeing to see with

Eyes wide open

But it was safer being blind.